Those of you who follow me on Twitter (handle: @ewardharris) will know about my devastating findings last week. The end of my story (2 and a half chapters) was gone, disappeared – and no amount of digging was bringing it back. Tauntingly, even my notepads were void of this elusive ending, my notes cutting off at the same point as the revision before me, like a clever trick I’d played on myself.
I had to start it from scratch. (sob)
It’s been quite a game.
Endings bring about resolution, conclusions, which is why they’re endings. Even in series, the individual novels have their own resolution at the end.
I knew exactly what was going to happen, it’s been on the cards for a few months (years, for me) for the main cast, but that doesn’t make it an easy thing to accomplish. There are a lot of characters, each who are impacted in different ways by the climax of the story.
Each of their actions and responses have to be emotionally compatible with their individual wants and goals, and that can hinder the process in getting it rounded off swiftly and as realistically as possible. This might be a fantasy world, but emotion and desire are real.
I’m two chapters in now, with half to go. Maybe one more. The ending is still at it was, but I have found that it’s changed in many ways, for the better. I’m closer to my characters and every action is true to them, so I’m a lot more comfortable with the entire setting.
What started as something tragic for me has turned into a blessing, I don’t think I’d have gotten this “finish” as clearly if I was just editing it. You know how it can be, your eyes scan the same words over and over, and it can be difficult to tell what *needs* editing and what is just nitpicking.
I’ll finish off here with just a little reminder that even on our bleakest writing days, there is a silver lining.
Don’t let little human errors kill your desire to write, to own your story. Have a day or two if you need it, then jump back in there.
You’re the one who started this thing, and you’re the only one who can finish it. Have the courage to do so.
Stay positive, stay determined and, most of all, enjoy it.